If you never try, you will never know.
So let me worry about taking care of me.
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Wednesday, July 30
Friday, July 11
I've Been Tagged
1. At what age do you wish to marry?
Hmm, probably when I'm 25-30
2. Where will you go if someone sponsored you a tour ticket?
I would go for a trip around the world.
3. What's your favourite thing to do?
I don't think I have a favourite thing. As long as I have something to do with people I like I'm fine.
4. Do you thnk money can buy happiness?
It depends what you percieve to be happiness. For me money may buy things that help in making me happy, but it won't buy me happiness.
5. Do you believe you can survive without money?
If I get sent back to when cavemen wrote on walls then yea. But if you're talking about the 21st century, of course not. Money is almost synonymous with survival.
6. What are you afraid to lose the most?
My freedom and ability to think and decide what is right for me.
7. If you win one million what would you do?
I would put most of it in my ASB account where I get almost 10% interest and use a small portion to treat my friends and family and of course myself. How is it fun if it's not shared right? Owh and I'll also give my 10% and help the poor. Whatever I give I recieve fourfold. Or so I'm told.
8. Dream job?
On an island somewhere with someone with me to keep me company, writing a novel with an amazing plot that is based mainly on my life thus far.
9. List 3 good things bout the person who tagged you.
Person 1: Outspoken. Reliable. Spontaneous.
Person 2: Talkative. Outgoing. Active.
10. If you only had one wish what would it be?
I would wish for more wishes!!! And if I can't do that....I'll wish for someone who wants and needs me as much as I need him. Lol. I know, shallow.
11. If you could rewind time, would you?
I might, once in a while to relive the best times of my life.
12. What's your ambition?
To be successful, and to lead a happy full life.
13. If you can teleport once, where would you go?
The moon, I'll be the first woman on the moon. And then I'll worry about getting back later.
14. What do you think is the most important in your life?
People.
15. If you could undo one mistake in the past, what would you do?
I would be more careful, and not as naive.
16. If you had a chance what part of your character would you change?
My tendency to worry too much and the whining that comes with it.
17. What music have you been listening to lately?
A lot of oldies.
18. What is the one thing you cannot do but wish you could?
I wish I could control my emotions.
19. What is your dream at this vey second?
That I can go out and shoot the chickens...
20. What type of people annoy you?
People who don't keep their promises and think that they're above everyone else.
Hmm, probably when I'm 25-30
2. Where will you go if someone sponsored you a tour ticket?
I would go for a trip around the world.
3. What's your favourite thing to do?
I don't think I have a favourite thing. As long as I have something to do with people I like I'm fine.
4. Do you thnk money can buy happiness?
It depends what you percieve to be happiness. For me money may buy things that help in making me happy, but it won't buy me happiness.
5. Do you believe you can survive without money?
If I get sent back to when cavemen wrote on walls then yea. But if you're talking about the 21st century, of course not. Money is almost synonymous with survival.
6. What are you afraid to lose the most?
My freedom and ability to think and decide what is right for me.
7. If you win one million what would you do?
I would put most of it in my ASB account where I get almost 10% interest and use a small portion to treat my friends and family and of course myself. How is it fun if it's not shared right? Owh and I'll also give my 10% and help the poor. Whatever I give I recieve fourfold. Or so I'm told.
8. Dream job?
On an island somewhere with someone with me to keep me company, writing a novel with an amazing plot that is based mainly on my life thus far.
9. List 3 good things bout the person who tagged you.
Person 1: Outspoken. Reliable. Spontaneous.
Person 2: Talkative. Outgoing. Active.
10. If you only had one wish what would it be?
I would wish for more wishes!!! And if I can't do that....I'll wish for someone who wants and needs me as much as I need him. Lol. I know, shallow.
11. If you could rewind time, would you?
I might, once in a while to relive the best times of my life.
12. What's your ambition?
To be successful, and to lead a happy full life.
13. If you can teleport once, where would you go?
The moon, I'll be the first woman on the moon. And then I'll worry about getting back later.
14. What do you think is the most important in your life?
People.
15. If you could undo one mistake in the past, what would you do?
I would be more careful, and not as naive.
16. If you had a chance what part of your character would you change?
My tendency to worry too much and the whining that comes with it.
17. What music have you been listening to lately?
A lot of oldies.
18. What is the one thing you cannot do but wish you could?
I wish I could control my emotions.
19. What is your dream at this vey second?
That I can go out and shoot the chickens...
20. What type of people annoy you?
People who don't keep their promises and think that they're above everyone else.
Foretell and Forthtell
I dun remember the difference of foretell and forthtell. I remember learning it once...but i cannot remember. How sad and retarded. Anyway since my body refuses to go to sleep, I'm going to answer a quiz that I've answered before, but who knows, things could have changed since then.
1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. Press forward for each question.
3. Use the song title as the answer to every question.
4. With the answers, comment on how it relates to the question.
1. How am I feeling today?
Sailing - Hmmm, well I guess if I could sail in a Trajet then yes I sailed from Penang to KL to Kuantan
2. Will I get far in life?
Everything I can't Have - I guess not seeing as how I want things I simply cannot have
3. How do my friends see me?
On Top Of You - Okay...
4. Will I get married?
The Way You Look Tonight - Yes I will...in a torn t-shirt and without shorts
5. What is my best friends theme song?
I'll Be There For You - Doesn't get truer than that, I can always count on them
6. What was high school like?
Hot - Actually I beg to differ. High school was about as hot as the North Pole
7. What's happening this weekend?
Mad Season - I don't know how things can get mad in Kuantan but I'll take it either way
8. How can I get ahead in life?
No Promises - Total truth. Never promise anyone anything.
9. How is my life going?
Show Me The Meaning Of Being Lonely - Haha...my iPod is psychic.
10. What is the story of my life?
Don't Bother - I'll pick myself up when I fall, so don't bother Ill be fine
11. How does the world see me?
I've Got The World On A String - It may seem that way sometimes
12. What song will they play at my funeral?
Some Day My Prince Will Come - I told you I'm going to die a spinster.
13. What's the best thing bout my friends?
Evil Deeds - lol
14. How can I make myself happy again?
I Don't Want You Now - If only
15. Do people secretly lust for me?
Somebody Needs You - awesome
16. What should I do in life?
20 Hour Drive - Somehow I DONT THINK SO!!! Geela...
17. Will I ever have my own children?
Mess Around - It seems inevitable
18. What will I strip to?
Mission Impossible Theme Song - LOL!!!
19. What is my deep dark secret?
Never Will I Break - ..hmm, that means I'm not telling
20. What is my enemy's theme song?
Bent - She is totally bent I tell you
21. What is my personality like?
Your Guardian Angel - Awww, I knew it -.-
22. What song will be played at my wedding?
Rock You Like A Hurricane - No comment?
...
1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. Press forward for each question.
3. Use the song title as the answer to every question.
4. With the answers, comment on how it relates to the question.
1. How am I feeling today?
Sailing - Hmmm, well I guess if I could sail in a Trajet then yes I sailed from Penang to KL to Kuantan
2. Will I get far in life?
Everything I can't Have - I guess not seeing as how I want things I simply cannot have
3. How do my friends see me?
On Top Of You - Okay...
4. Will I get married?
The Way You Look Tonight - Yes I will...in a torn t-shirt and without shorts
5. What is my best friends theme song?
I'll Be There For You - Doesn't get truer than that, I can always count on them
6. What was high school like?
Hot - Actually I beg to differ. High school was about as hot as the North Pole
7. What's happening this weekend?
Mad Season - I don't know how things can get mad in Kuantan but I'll take it either way
8. How can I get ahead in life?
No Promises - Total truth. Never promise anyone anything.
9. How is my life going?
Show Me The Meaning Of Being Lonely - Haha...my iPod is psychic.
10. What is the story of my life?
Don't Bother - I'll pick myself up when I fall, so don't bother Ill be fine
11. How does the world see me?
I've Got The World On A String - It may seem that way sometimes
12. What song will they play at my funeral?
Some Day My Prince Will Come - I told you I'm going to die a spinster.
13. What's the best thing bout my friends?
Evil Deeds - lol
14. How can I make myself happy again?
I Don't Want You Now - If only
15. Do people secretly lust for me?
Somebody Needs You - awesome
16. What should I do in life?
20 Hour Drive - Somehow I DONT THINK SO!!! Geela...
17. Will I ever have my own children?
Mess Around - It seems inevitable
18. What will I strip to?
Mission Impossible Theme Song - LOL!!!
19. What is my deep dark secret?
Never Will I Break - ..hmm, that means I'm not telling
20. What is my enemy's theme song?
Bent - She is totally bent I tell you
21. What is my personality like?
Your Guardian Angel - Awww, I knew it -.-
22. What song will be played at my wedding?
Rock You Like A Hurricane - No comment?
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Thursday, July 10
It's all about the roots
I am currently in Kuantan. After much persuasion on my parents part I am here. Why so much persuasion needed? Cuz I hate travelling....seriously. I'm one of the worst travellers ever. i get car sick, I wanna rn out of the car and back home all the time, I dun like spending hours doing nothing. So yea, i dun like travelling.
And if I dun like travellin why have I spent the last week on the road away from home!!! sigh
Anyway not important. I officially start work on the 15th. After driving many people mad with my fretting. I'm actually looking forward to it, something to occupy my time. Hah and I get to hang out with Pey June all day. So fun!
And I think that when I travel i eat more!!! I think I've put on weight...sigh...useless. Got to go exercise. (Of course I say that but I wun cuz I'm me and me means being lazy)
Anyway, hopefully we can go eat Italianies this week. After much of Sukis waiting and planning. Especially since we agree that we're all growing apart. Need to see them to know that I need them. Does that make sense?
And theres ntg on tv rite now. Die. Boring.
Sigh I guess I'm going to sleep then. In my old bed. At least some things never change.
And if I dun like travellin why have I spent the last week on the road away from home!!! sigh
Anyway not important. I officially start work on the 15th. After driving many people mad with my fretting. I'm actually looking forward to it, something to occupy my time. Hah and I get to hang out with Pey June all day. So fun!
And I think that when I travel i eat more!!! I think I've put on weight...sigh...useless. Got to go exercise. (Of course I say that but I wun cuz I'm me and me means being lazy)
Anyway, hopefully we can go eat Italianies this week. After much of Sukis waiting and planning. Especially since we agree that we're all growing apart. Need to see them to know that I need them. Does that make sense?
And theres ntg on tv rite now. Die. Boring.
Sigh I guess I'm going to sleep then. In my old bed. At least some things never change.
Tuesday, July 8
Mindless Ramblings....
Why do I get panic attacks at the most random times?
I have yet to close a deal with anyone regarding any room which I will eventually stay in. (I noe people are tired about hearing me bitch about finding a room)
But it's hard.
Also it suddenly hit me that I'll be staying alone. Technically. Housemates don't count cuz I don't know them! And I do not know how to wash my clothes, much less iron them. If I attempt to, I have attempted to, I take hours on end. I also do not know how to cook. What am I going to live on? Bread and butter? Probably...
And I'll be ALONE!!!
I think I have a phobia about being alone. Really, I need people around me.
I'm afraid that when i go to uni people are going to slowly forget me. And instead of keeping in touch I'll just drift further and further away until one day I'll no longer remember them. And they won't remember me.
What if I fail to understand what I'm being taught? What if I turn out to be really really dumb? And I drop out after the first semester and end up working in sum hell hole I hate and despise?
What if I dislike my lecturers? What if I dislike my peers? What if my peers dislike ME?!
What if...what if...what if....
(sigh)
I need to be able to look back and smile. I need to be able to tell myself that I had fun but it didn't last. I need to be able to not cut ties.
Ugh, that's the hard part. I can feel myself going to. I keep pulling myself away from the edge, before I take the plunge I know I'm going to regret. But no matter how many times I tell myself not to mess with things, that things are fine the way they are, I find myself drawn back to the same edge. Just waiting for the courage to do it.
But I can't do it can I? I'll hurt myself. And I'll hurt other people. And what's the use of that? What can I possibly gain from making myself and the people I care about suffer?
When I think about it, I know I don't want to. I think I might feel a bit better if I do...but will I really? In the end all I'm going to achieve is an absence in my life. A hole that might never be filled, but at least it's not filled with something bad right? I'm going back and forth here, looking at the pros and the cons and I cannot understand. I don't know what my mind is trying to tell me.
If I do it...I lose my friend.
If I do it...I'll regret it.
I don't wanna regret it. I don't wanna do sumthing stupid that can ruin my life as I know it. But then again...why do I keep crawling back to the edge...?
I have got to stop thinking so much. Or find a better outlet for useless random thoughts.
I have yet to close a deal with anyone regarding any room which I will eventually stay in. (I noe people are tired about hearing me bitch about finding a room)
But it's hard.
Also it suddenly hit me that I'll be staying alone. Technically. Housemates don't count cuz I don't know them! And I do not know how to wash my clothes, much less iron them. If I attempt to, I have attempted to, I take hours on end. I also do not know how to cook. What am I going to live on? Bread and butter? Probably...
And I'll be ALONE!!!
I think I have a phobia about being alone. Really, I need people around me.
I'm afraid that when i go to uni people are going to slowly forget me. And instead of keeping in touch I'll just drift further and further away until one day I'll no longer remember them. And they won't remember me.
What if I fail to understand what I'm being taught? What if I turn out to be really really dumb? And I drop out after the first semester and end up working in sum hell hole I hate and despise?
What if I dislike my lecturers? What if I dislike my peers? What if my peers dislike ME?!
What if...what if...what if....
(sigh)
I need to be able to look back and smile. I need to be able to tell myself that I had fun but it didn't last. I need to be able to not cut ties.
Ugh, that's the hard part. I can feel myself going to. I keep pulling myself away from the edge, before I take the plunge I know I'm going to regret. But no matter how many times I tell myself not to mess with things, that things are fine the way they are, I find myself drawn back to the same edge. Just waiting for the courage to do it.
But I can't do it can I? I'll hurt myself. And I'll hurt other people. And what's the use of that? What can I possibly gain from making myself and the people I care about suffer?
When I think about it, I know I don't want to. I think I might feel a bit better if I do...but will I really? In the end all I'm going to achieve is an absence in my life. A hole that might never be filled, but at least it's not filled with something bad right? I'm going back and forth here, looking at the pros and the cons and I cannot understand. I don't know what my mind is trying to tell me.
If I do it...I lose my friend.
If I do it...I'll regret it.
I don't wanna regret it. I don't wanna do sumthing stupid that can ruin my life as I know it. But then again...why do I keep crawling back to the edge...?
I have got to stop thinking so much. Or find a better outlet for useless random thoughts.
Monday, July 7
You're on my mind
Haha. I went to Nadia's blog and saw the New Kids On The Block video. And now I'm reminiscing.
I'm in Penang now. So far it's been pretty dull. Then again I drove two of the 4 hours to Penang. So I'm really tired. Bought a couple of DVDS, ntg much la. All the nice ones that I nak isn't clear!!! Now I'm using the hotel internet connection....really makes me appreciate the internet connection at home.
I still takde tempat nak tinggal....and I still tak tahu what stuff I need for IMU...I really do worry too much kan....but I can't stop!!! Kill me...kill me now.
I still gotsta buy all the formal wear. Ugh... Bila ada masa got to drag people out for their professional opinion.
Song stuck in my head right now: Play that funky music, Wild Cherry... -.-
I'm in Penang now. So far it's been pretty dull. Then again I drove two of the 4 hours to Penang. So I'm really tired. Bought a couple of DVDS, ntg much la. All the nice ones that I nak isn't clear!!! Now I'm using the hotel internet connection....really makes me appreciate the internet connection at home.
I still takde tempat nak tinggal....and I still tak tahu what stuff I need for IMU...I really do worry too much kan....but I can't stop!!! Kill me...kill me now.
I still gotsta buy all the formal wear. Ugh... Bila ada masa got to drag people out for their professional opinion.
Song stuck in my head right now: Play that funky music, Wild Cherry... -.-
Friday, July 4
It's all that I need
Today has been one of those days where it seems like the world is against me. Today after much running around in Bukit Jalil I closed a deal with a girl for a room at VKB, directly opposite the uni. We settled everything, including when and how I can pay. Then at 10pm, she calls me saying I can only have the room if I want to pay more, because she has desperate students who are willing to pay more. I half wanted to yell at her saying if you wanted to wait to see if you could get more money you should have told me that you would get back to me not make the freaking deal. But in my calm composed state I told her I would get back to her on that. She had the nerve to be RUDE saying that I was lucky she even got back to me about it. LUCKY? She is OBLIGED to get back to me, seeing as how we made a deal and I was going to bank money into her account. Rude. Impolite. Bitchy. Without taste.
On the way back I realized everytime I braked my car seemed to thump. Very worried, and since I was once again near the Curve, I brought it to Leong (who Ive started to like). Apparently my front absorbers need to be changed. Crap (I hate Riley right now. Seriously. I don't care.) Since Jen was with Dee nearby, she picked me up and we went for dinner, before going prom dress shopping (extremely last minute Jen).
We walked round the Curve, about 9pm already that time. And found a couple of dresses. I also tried one.....OH-MY-GOODNESS!!!!! It was AMAZING! It was so soft, so comfy. Then as I was zipping it up it felt like heaven, it was a perfect fit, hugging my hips and waist. When I got to the bust area, I realized I couldn't zip it up past there. It's too small at the bust area but fits perfectly everywhere else??! How messed up is that???... seriously, did they design it for a ten year old...?
Also....I think I might be delusional. I think I might actually NOT have the job. I was told that someone would call me today about what I should wear and when I should report for duty....but I never got any phone call. I swear...I think I might have misheard the manager. Maybe he actually said 'I'm sorry, but like everyone else, we don't want you.' but I heard, 'You can start on the 15th, from 11am to 5 pm. Six hours a day.'
...
On the way back I realized everytime I braked my car seemed to thump. Very worried, and since I was once again near the Curve, I brought it to Leong (who Ive started to like). Apparently my front absorbers need to be changed. Crap (I hate Riley right now. Seriously. I don't care.) Since Jen was with Dee nearby, she picked me up and we went for dinner, before going prom dress shopping (extremely last minute Jen).
We walked round the Curve, about 9pm already that time. And found a couple of dresses. I also tried one.....OH-MY-GOODNESS!!!!! It was AMAZING! It was so soft, so comfy. Then as I was zipping it up it felt like heaven, it was a perfect fit, hugging my hips and waist. When I got to the bust area, I realized I couldn't zip it up past there. It's too small at the bust area but fits perfectly everywhere else??! How messed up is that???... seriously, did they design it for a ten year old...?
Also....I think I might be delusional. I think I might actually NOT have the job. I was told that someone would call me today about what I should wear and when I should report for duty....but I never got any phone call. I swear...I think I might have misheard the manager. Maybe he actually said 'I'm sorry, but like everyone else, we don't want you.' but I heard, 'You can start on the 15th, from 11am to 5 pm. Six hours a day.'
...
Thursday, July 3
Laugh out loud
I have not been in a very good mood the last.....4 hours or so. After putting hours and hours into searching for a room, I found one. The perfect room. I'm so serious the pope has nothing on me (sorry your holiness).
But after agreeing...AGREEING as in the room was MINE the guy pulled out. Because after settling the price and conditions and things, he asks 'Are you a Chinese?'....
The fact that I'm 1/4 Chinese didn't seem to matter. Owh sorry la, I change my ind you cant have the room. $%^)&*(_)(@((*$&@@**%%$#!&*(!!!!!!!!!!!! I tell you.
But yea, my mood changed when a special someone said, 'You changed my life, when you stepped in.'
AWWW so sweet!!!!!! I love him to bits right now.
P/S For the record I hate racists. And sexists. That has nothing to do with anything, I'm just saying.
But after agreeing...AGREEING as in the room was MINE the guy pulled out. Because after settling the price and conditions and things, he asks 'Are you a Chinese?'....
The fact that I'm 1/4 Chinese didn't seem to matter. Owh sorry la, I change my ind you cant have the room. $%^)&*(_)(@((*$&@@**%%$#!&*(!!!!!!!!!!!! I tell you.
But yea, my mood changed when a special someone said, 'You changed my life, when you stepped in.'
AWWW so sweet!!!!!! I love him to bits right now.
P/S For the record I hate racists. And sexists. That has nothing to do with anything, I'm just saying.
Joke la, kawan ma
Apartments and rooms near IMU Bukit Jalil disappear as fast as they are made available. Honestly, I've called more than 60 numbers (not joking) and have yet to find a place to stay. Tomorrow I have 3 meetings. The first, a whole apartment at Vista Komenwel. Second, a whole apartment at Endah Ria. Third, a room at Jalil Damai (or sumthing like that). At the moment...the most likely option is the room at Jalil Damai. The only real concern is (besides the lack of air conditioning) the distance from IMU. If the distance is walkable, or realistic to drive, then I suppose I might go for that room.
But enough on apartments. Today I grabbed Suki to go collect my blood test results. I am not carrying hepatitis B at the moment, but I am not immune either (WAT???!!! I went for multiple jabs people!!!). Sigh...
Then we went to the Curve to see Adiel at work. Very impressive, he actually looks good in his uniform. We ordered...something along the lines of chicken something. Made specially for us by Adiel. Very nice. It was tasty!!! We jalan-jalan for a while round the curve then tried looking for Adiel again tapi couldnt find him, so I sent Suki to her ballet school. Turns out Adiel went to eat at The Apartment. After dropping suki, pusing balik la gi the Curve. Got lost on the way. Section 14 hates me I tell you. In the end made it to The Apartment la. Adiel was just about finishing his main course. I have no idea wat it was, tapi it was good! Then I kinda stole a bit of the chocolate mousse thingie (also once again no idea wat its called) and it was good! Sigh... So yea, the food at The Apartment and O' Briens is good. If I hadn't made that clear already.
So tomorrow...I gotta go to Bukit Jalil. And after all I do for Adiel, he won't teman me to Bukit Jalil....inilah kawan....sigh. (joke la, kawan ma)
But enough on apartments. Today I grabbed Suki to go collect my blood test results. I am not carrying hepatitis B at the moment, but I am not immune either (WAT???!!! I went for multiple jabs people!!!). Sigh...
Then we went to the Curve to see Adiel at work. Very impressive, he actually looks good in his uniform. We ordered...something along the lines of chicken something. Made specially for us by Adiel. Very nice. It was tasty!!! We jalan-jalan for a while round the curve then tried looking for Adiel again tapi couldnt find him, so I sent Suki to her ballet school. Turns out Adiel went to eat at The Apartment. After dropping suki, pusing balik la gi the Curve. Got lost on the way. Section 14 hates me I tell you. In the end made it to The Apartment la. Adiel was just about finishing his main course. I have no idea wat it was, tapi it was good! Then I kinda stole a bit of the chocolate mousse thingie (also once again no idea wat its called) and it was good! Sigh... So yea, the food at The Apartment and O' Briens is good. If I hadn't made that clear already.
So tomorrow...I gotta go to Bukit Jalil. And after all I do for Adiel, he won't teman me to Bukit Jalil....inilah kawan....sigh. (joke la, kawan ma)
Wednesday, July 2
I got rejected
Meh. Not that big a surprise but yea, TGIF rejected me. :(
Reason: They cannot afford to hire me for only a month. They said if I was working for TWO months they would hire me. Unfortunately I cannot work for two months....so yea, forget getting a job. ARGH! It's like everyone else except me can get a job.
So yea, spent some time in the Curve today, then went to look for apartments. Trust me. Not easy. And my primary plan kinda killed itself before it even started. I was really relying on it!!! But yea...life never goes the way you expect it to. So I have to continue hunting...and hope for the best.
Right now I'm at Dee's house...using the extremely slow internet and desperately searching for sumthing to watch on TV. Theres ntg on at this time....watever time it is. Owh it's 1am.
It has also come to my attention that I worry a little too much. Just a little. I worry about starting uni, about getting a place to stay, about getting formal clothes to wear, about actually making it thru uni, about wat happens after the 5 years, about whether I'm going to die a spinster. Lots and lots of stuff like that. I need to stop worrying don't I? I need to stop thinking too much about things that are trivial when you really look at it. But if I am the way I am...I don't think I'll be able to. Not just yet anyway.
So yea, the point of this post was, I got rejected. All the rest are ramblings that really have no point....
Reason: They cannot afford to hire me for only a month. They said if I was working for TWO months they would hire me. Unfortunately I cannot work for two months....so yea, forget getting a job. ARGH! It's like everyone else except me can get a job.
So yea, spent some time in the Curve today, then went to look for apartments. Trust me. Not easy. And my primary plan kinda killed itself before it even started. I was really relying on it!!! But yea...life never goes the way you expect it to. So I have to continue hunting...and hope for the best.
Right now I'm at Dee's house...using the extremely slow internet and desperately searching for sumthing to watch on TV. Theres ntg on at this time....watever time it is. Owh it's 1am.
It has also come to my attention that I worry a little too much. Just a little. I worry about starting uni, about getting a place to stay, about getting formal clothes to wear, about actually making it thru uni, about wat happens after the 5 years, about whether I'm going to die a spinster. Lots and lots of stuff like that. I need to stop worrying don't I? I need to stop thinking too much about things that are trivial when you really look at it. But if I am the way I am...I don't think I'll be able to. Not just yet anyway.
So yea, the point of this post was, I got rejected. All the rest are ramblings that really have no point....
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